can i myself find new members?

( please dont read on a video presentation) i have tried selling many different items such as cutlery, air purifiers,and vaccuums from different companies. to put this into possibly the wrong term, those of whom ive tried to make a sales pitch to, are, even at that time, uninterested or underfunded to let me make a sale. so the “usuals” i would have tried to talk to, dont think i have anything good enough for them, or its their own secure insecurities they have built up that push me away. so my question if you could elaborate is this…how should i or how can i get past their “set in stone” mixed emotions if ive already tried to sell them something? stimulation is hard to do correctly through conversation in my family due to lack of what wasnt there and what was growing up.(long story) im the youngest of five children and have had a hard time knowing that possibly the best times of my life are slipping away due to thinking i should have to stay home for when it gets worse than what it is. dads got MS, menears, diabetes, and no retirement. even he dosent want to have anything to do with what im interested in. wont get into the alcaholic verbally abusive and manipulating side of my mom dragging the life out of the entire family. its extremely hard to even realize when im supposed to enjoy myself and forget about the home life since i still live at home.

i suppose i will just have to listen to Mark when he says to be patient and if necessary to re-read material to strengthen my base. im sorry for saying this but i still feel a little lost due to my surroundings. however, knowledge is power in control and i understand i have made a signifigant addition not only to what i understand but HOW I SHOULD HAVE UNDERSTOOD IT from the very beginning. i still have hope and its growing.